Air Mai - Under the Surface

Let me preface this with "it's not what is said, it's how it's said..." Charlie spilled milk on his carpet in the playroom a week ago and it got SUPER stinky. So I brought out the carpet cleaner, took care of it, and left the cleaner there in case I'd need to do it again. Well, it had been sitting there for 5 days (this I admit). It's not that I was too lazy to put it away, I just didn't think. I forgot.  Flash forward to Sunday and we’re in the kitchen and he says "can you empty the carpet cleaner that's been in Charlies playroom for FIVE DAYS? Why has it just been sitting there?" I was a little annoyed by that because my first thought is "if it bothers you so much, why can’t you just do it?" I mean, I understand. I was the one that cleaned the carpet and I was the one that left it there, but if it was that much of an issue, then step up and just do it (which I brought up) and that kicked off an issue on Sunday. "I've ...

I woke up New Year's day with a new mantra I say in the mirror, "Remember who the FUCK you are!" I am also working on speaking my truth, come hell or high water and getting comfortable in the uncomfortable. Unfortunately, 13 days into the year and I'm already getting burned by the flames while subsequently drowning...but I digress. I'm living in a state of insanity--doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. I know I need to step it up, but fear is holding me back. Fear of discomfort. Fear of the worst getting worse. Fear of the unknown. But, it's time. It's time to stop be scared and start living again. I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of walking on eggshells and overthinking everything. I'm tired of living in a constant state of concern and worry.  I will make 2025 the year of me. Return of the Ria. Not sure what is going to happen or how or when or what, but mark my words, I am making a comeback.