10-23 Shenangians

He gets home from work. I gave him a pack of "Friends" card game. Without a beat, “don’t we already have a few of these that we never play?” I said, well, let's change that! "Stop spending money." No thank yous. No nothing. I even said “oh, thank you hunny for thinking of me." Then Charlie said he wanted to see Sunny Bunnies, so I turend on the TV. Then he started on me. Hardcore. "TV already? Why can't you do something different once in a while?" I said Charlie learns things from TV. "He can learn from YOU teaching him." I said I do teach him. And he scoffs. Then says I’m giving him attitude. "You know you can teach him to go outside. It’s sunny out. Maybe one of the last nice days of the year." I said ok, just 1 episode and we go outside. "It’s never just one episode." At this point he's pissed and his eyes are that crazy look with pupils all dilated. So we watched one and Charlie lost it but I got him to go outside on the premise of decorating the candy bowl. Mind you, K disappears and goes downstairs outside and it's like OK, so we're outside and you're off being loner? After the bowl we went downstairs and I said let's draw Sunny Bunnies in chalk. Charlie's ok with it. MIND YOU, it's friggin cold. K is still being all pissy. I called him out and said "it’s like you came home looking to fight." He got re-huffy and scoffy and walks away talking loudly and very condescedingly under his breath "oh, yea. yea, ok. That's JUST what it is. Mommy's soooooooo smart." To which I quickly yelled, "THANK YOU! Charlie, daddy said mommy is sooooo smart." He also said "you're hurting your child and you don't care," in regard to letting him have his paci. He also accused me of "not even trying" because I gave it to him the second he got home. No, actually, I didn't give it to him. He grabbed it off the table. But, I DID tell him "never say that to me again," because I would NEVER intentionally hurt Charlie. EVER. And, that was just an asshole thing to say. (I didn't say that last part, but I wanted to. He gets on my case and says "you sit home all day and we have one nice day and you just wanna watch TV?" I said so you're upset that I'm not doing what YOU want to do? "It's always the same with you." I said if he doesn't want to go tonight, he doesn't have to. "Oh, it's that easy?" I said yes. He still ended up coming. Went outside and smoked and of course, after that was "nice" and "normal." We're at dinner at my brother's and trying to eat and Charlie is being all crazy. Hopping on the couch (etc.) and I didn't want him to fall because there's glass stuff everywhere. So I called him over and was going to pull up Netflix and of COURSE that went over like a lead balloon. "He's fine! He's just playing! And, you want him to watch TV?!" So I turned it off and Charlie started calling me to come over and sit by him and play. So I leave the table and go to the couch and K comes over and is like "Charlie, let mommy have some time." And, he doesnt want that. And, it's like HELLO. I'm not trying to have him be addicted to TV but it'd also be nice to be able to enjoy adult time. When we got home I took my shoes off on the landing (like always) and he says with typical K narcitude, "you know there’s a shelf for your shoes, right?" I'm thinking, OK, well you know there’s a dishwasher for your dishes instead of just putting them on the counter for me to take care of. And, it's annoying when he gets on me for buying food/drink that he doesn't deem OK. Kool-Aid Jammers, for example. "Why do you buy this crap? No one drinks it. It ends up sitting here then Charlie has it. Why don't you buy the good stuff.?" Actually, they're 75% less sugar than leading drinks sooooo. **It's like he's digging deeper and getting meaner to get to me**

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