Random Thoughts/Realization

I think one of our big problems is we spend too much time together. I don't think he feels that way, but I think that might be an issue. Because, every night it's the "what do you want to do" game. And, every night, it's the same selection of things. 

  • Watch tv/movie (which I LOVE and he hates)
  • Sit by a fire
  • Play pool/games
  • Do our own thing
Maybe we do need more variety or something? But with the weather break he has outdoor house stuff to do so going anywhere is meh. And, when Charlie goes to bed, WE can't go anywhere. What really is there to do? What do other people do? I wish he had friends to actually get together with, because it seems like when I want to go out (more often) he gets all pissy/hurt. Or turns it into I want to be with my friends more than work on our relationship (i.e., you make time for everyone else...)

I know he's at work all day and we don't see each other all day, but that's ok, right? I mean, not everything needs to be a group activity. Not everything HAS to be done together. *sigh*

I also am concerned because maybe we're just beyond repair. He's been great the past week. But, I have that weird nagging feeling and I just can't get on the truly happy train. Maybe it's waiting for the other shoe to drop (felt there was a quiver last night because he was talking about taking Monday off and adding in (jokingly) something about me not having time for him. And, I quipped back I took most of the eclipse day off. ANd, he said "but, you said you weren't that busy." And, I said "I lied." HOLY HELL. Definitely the wrong thing to say because the 'tude turned on. Luckily he dropped it after a while, but ugh. And, he was all hot and horny (shocking) and when I turned down to advances he got all hurt/quiet/mopey/walk aways. I kept acting like everything was normal, but it felt awkward.

Yea, IDK. Maybe I'm just not happy with this anymore. The Righteous Brothers "You Lost That Loving Feeling" keeps playing in my head. Kinda lol...kinda not. No clue how to even broach that subject since I can't even talk to him normally ("no, you don't even TRY!"). There are reasons! Grumble.

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