11-29-23 NOT the takeaway intended - and he was wrong

 Charlie has been a little shit to K as of lately. Like mean. "I don't like you, daddy! I don't want you, Daddy! Go away daddy!" It's sad. I try my best to stop it, but I have no control over the little gremlin. I've tried asking him why he says those things and that they are hurtful and he either says "I don't know" or "Daddy's loud/scary, mean." He told K he was too loud once (when I made him go downstairs to apologize).

Anywho, Charlie is COMPLETELY different with K when they are just the two of them vs when I'm around. So I figured, ok. Tuesdays/Thursdays he's with me all day. Thursdays I see Bev, so maybe I'll take Tuesdays "out" to either see Marisa or go spinning or grocery shop or whatever. Give them time alone. We're playing pool downstairs and I bring it up...SHOCKER...he turned it into something...

His first reaction was "oh, so I'll never see you then." I scoffed. I literally scoffed. I had no filter. He got pissed. My reaction was uncalled for. What did it even mean. How dare me. Etc. I said I wasn't sure it just happened and I didn't mean offense, but seriously? We NEVER see each other? We are together ALL THE DAMN TIME. And, if we're not together...it's because he is doing fish stuff OR I'm trying to let him and Charlie play. 

Then it turned into "you plan everything for everyone else, but nothing for us." Omg, dude. NOT the point of me suggesting this. The POINT is to get YOU and CHARLIE undivided time together because HELLLLLLOOOO when I'm here that doesn't happen and he's a little gremlin! 

Of course, he also started on me being too soft and this is why he does it, blah blah blah. Not being mean, just "stating facts" which I get, but *grumble*.

I'm still annoyed today and trying not to be. It's just the whole nothing is good enough scenario again. I make a suggestion to help strengthen their bond and NOPE it comes back on me because someone has to pick pick pick it apart. 

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