New Nothing More Song

Some lyrics just hit differently: 

If it doesn’t hurt at all
Then it doesn’t mean a thing

I never knew that I could feel this way
If it doesn’t hurt at all
There’s nothing left to save
Cause holding onto hope
Is a different kind of pain
A different kind of pain
A different kind of pain

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