Fuck Ups are Annoying

 Fuck ups are annoying...especially when you're the party at fault.

Long story long, I got drunk last night and was reportedly mean to him. However, he says I was saying all this SERIOUSLY weird shit--shit that I would NEVER say nor have any clue how it'd pop in my head to say it. So part of me is like ummmmmmm, you're lying. But, the other part is like ok, why would he make that up. And, I said IF I did say anything like that it was probably to be joking. However, he says he repeatedly told me I was being mean and I have NO recollection of that what so ever. 

So, did it happen? He sure was pissy and irritated, but what he says I said is SO out of character for me--it's not even in the same realm as me. Very odd.

He seems ok now. I apologized. But, yeesh. As per normal, I feel awful and am trying not to dwell on it to make things worse, but UUUUGHHH.

He definitely got nitpicky this morning with things

  • I always have to clean up after you two. 
  • I thought you were going to eat breakfast, I'm hungry. 
  • I'll make you breakfast, what do you want? Me: IDK what are you making? *eye roll* and massive irritated sigh. I'm like DUDE, I'll have what you're having, or just heat me up a frozen sandwich. "Don't you normally make breakfast for yourself?!" Calm. Down.

Things are ok. I just HATE feeling like the asshole and really don't want things being held over my head. Hopefully, they won't be. Especially because we all have off days/times. Lord knows how many HE has had that I never said boo about. But, we're not going to go there...

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